my feelings are very, very hurt. fuck, i am torn-shredded-ripped up. i have to constantly remind myself to not give a shit. i know exactly how to slap on a smile. but my feelings, my heart, my soulll is hurting and you know why. you know exactly why. you know absolutely, every single reason why. and you do not attempt to change one single thing. i am finally letting myself accept the fact that you don’t care for me anymore. for so long i was so good for you and contributed to your well being but…my chest is sinking and you know why.